Dec 09 - What about me?!

Hm........it seems lose touch with my blog for while....

In summary, about me for the past month including happy, sad, worry, confuse, ambivalence, (Up & Down)....mixture feeling

in the mid to end of Nov, fully focus on my study - the final exam of my life, might be. Spent on most of my times on it, esp BF. I was damn upset as i thought i gonna to be failed in the final paper. I didn't felt good as in short of time to manage to finish the last 3 questions, and it required of exam paper need to be passed in order to pass the whole unit. I couldn't release my tense at those few days after it. Been summer classes, just to precaution. To relax myself, and thus, i decided to take a short trip back home to visit my dear friends In SG & KL. I don't know still if this short trip was helpful or not.

Anyhow, i finally met my dears who i never met and not yet to meet each other for about 2 years plus. Ethan, he is such a lovely, adorable baby... oh my god, i wondered to bring him home with me. =p Sharon, she is one of my dears. Someone who i don't meet each other often but we're still stay close, understanding each other. This is what we called it "BF". And those, what we called it "Hi-Bye Friend", is to tell the person through cover of the book, never to be seek the truth and trying to understand in person. "眼见不尽为凭，耳听不见为真". The best way, to leave them alone up to their believing. Explanations are not important to them either, so, don't waste time on it. Why don't enjoy myself in a positive conditions. Fact is always the principal to tell the truth and tell peoples.

December, is about now. I really excited and i knew that i passed the paper which i upset of the exam paper. Also, i am graduating.....Really glad & happy of the effort put in it and outcome as what i wish to be. God is doing his work and plan me ahead.... Thank you Lord!!

Sometimes, i would like to prefer alone... to be alone while enjoying watching, listening and so.... keep myself lose touch with anyone, only in a space where belonging to myself. I think, perhaps, it is not a bad suggestion. Too tired to stay in argument, explanations, self-defensive. ..........Want to get a calming & happily life....

Wishing 2010 is a better year ahead. Sending off 2009, not a good year to me ...