悲或喜？

每个人的心中总有解不开的结。那，就得在乎于自己如何看待它。很多时候，真的很开心那自由翱翔的自己，无拘无束。但，悲伤的是，那总放不开束缚的自己。有时还真地鄙视这一面的不堪。

说了解，相信还没有人可以真的彻底了解，甚至自己都不解自己，那又能奢求他人的了解麽？ ？？

为何总不能把事情简单化呢？为何总把一切复杂化呢？

真的很害怕这不仅伤了自己，还伤了无辜的人，痴心的人。。。

好想把一切抛之脑后，继续向前努力的奔跑，向前冲，到达那梦想的地点和成就。。。 。。。

但是，

错过了这一站，还有下一站吗？哪里是终点？

Be myself

We are the reason....

Tears and sorrow filled with my heart while i listening to this song. Pretty moody at these two days and continuous bloating & vomiting for 2 nights.

Getting sick? no ideas... just an uncomfortable feeling heading to my mind. I would love to keep myself at a point of peacefulness ... whereas, ....

oh well, wipe them off!!!! Just to be myself...

幸福没有那么容易

幸福没有那么容易，才会特别让人着迷，想念最伤心，但却最动心的记忆。。。　。。。　

words without words

13/2/2010 midnight

today is about chinese new year eve. I pretty awake still, and wondering why so many things keep on and appearing on my mind..?!

Is not about emotions now!! just unsolvable thoughts are playing around ... shall do? or shalln't do? shall say or shall not say? yes? or no?

There are so many why and wonder for, but i know there are so many answer unable to seek for...

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a word ----> speechless ...

Songs with good lyrics

留給你的窗--伍思凱

郑源-不要在我寂寞的时候说爱我

不要用我的爱来伤害我-( 韩晶)

阿木-有一種愛叫放手

愛的可能 葉蒨文

鄭源-為什麼相愛的人不能夠在一起

鄭源 ~ 怎麼會狠心傷害我

可不可以不勇敢

別說我的眼淚你無所謂

張玉華+李聖傑-是你決定我的傷心

吳宗憲、謝金燕「默契」

孫燕姿-開始懂了

Encouragement @ the Climb

Keep moving, moving... ...
Don't get stuck in ambivalent situations
It is 2010 now

Keep moving, moving... ...
Don't want to be old me
It is 2010 now

Keep climbing, climbing... ...
Let's welcome new day at everyday without tears
It is not 2009 anymore

Keep climbing, climbing... ...
Let's stop the repeating tails
It is not 2009 anymore

Keep holding up, holding up... ...
Keep to positive way, highly spirit way... ...
I can do this!!

Horoscope : GENERAL

This year 2010 announces a revival, a realignment of your objectives in the broad sense, a general development which will enable you to be more precise in your actions. Indeed, you feel necessary to re-examine your assets with clearness, in order to advance more effectively, you seek to eliminate all that is superfluous. You return to your personal objectives, which enables you to show your true limits with your entourage.

Of all the sun signs, Virgo is the most colorful and glamorous! It is the only sign that is feminine in character! People feel that a feminine character is weak and fragile. However, this feminine character is neither weak nor meek; she is rather very strong and demanding. She is also highly creative and inventive in her personality. People born under this sign are extremely smart, erudite, refined and scholarly. Virgo is also a much-disciplined sign that values the principle of orderliness and cleanliness. Apart from these noble characters, she is also conventional and highly traditional. Practicality and punctuality are the hallmarks of these people as well. Other positive signs are conservativeness and steadfastness that eventually will help them to assert their superiority over others. However, they are too suspicious of other’s motives and ambitions. Virgo 2010 yearly horoscope brings lot of good luck to Virgo people.

Virgo 2010 horoscope has some interesting predictions for Virgo people. In spite of putting lot of efforts, they may fail to seize the initiative to turn odds into success. This is so true for some Virgo people especially in the career front. The New Year could mean a lot to Virgos. In fact, it may be a year of changes and transformations; a change on the workplace may exert lot of pressure on most Virgos. Long cherished promotion and pay hike may never materialize to them.

Virgo 2010 Career and Income Horoscope

One nagging aspect of the 2010 Virgo horoscope is in the career related issues. Planetary positions are not too good for most Virgos in the first half of the year. Career progress seems to be very difficult during this phase of the year. The first quarter of the year may prove very dicey and difficult as efforts to redeem the career position may yield very little. Disappointments and disillusionments are common at the juncture. A change in the workplace is a distinct possibility, sometimes during the last few months of the year. Financial related matters are not too rosy in the first half of the year while the second half will see a remarkable stability in the financial position. Long awaited promotions and pay hike may never materialize during the New Year. Conventional wisdom indicates Virgo people should not take hasty or urgent decisions. The last few months of the year, (November and December) may prove to somewhat good for many Virgos. Some Virgos may earn a significant amount of income during these two months. At least some Virgos may find some form of solace and contentment at this time.

WORK

Don’t feel guilty, it is time to think of you, this will balance your industrial relationships and in particular those you give more than others… You require building the future, and it is in the professional plan that you will have most facilities. Don’t hesitate to propose yourself if you must assert a promotion, or launch your project, you are likely all to obtain satisfaction. You will tend to irritate you weaknesses of certain collaborators, to show you too fastidious. Don’t forget that you can only count on yourself for certain details. Optimism and black thoughts can overlap, try to balance your mental bubbling by devoting yourself to facts and keep serene despite you became aware of the width of what you have to achieve. You must plan your action in time, it is a fertile departure which you can start, which is already not so badly.

MONEY

Financial questions are this year, closely related to your emotional life. You won’t have any evil to keep the cool head, but it is in your entourage that you will find matter to doubt of your way of managing your money. In you incentive with expenditure, directly or not, your close relations will try to soften you in this field. It will be necessary to make concessions … The whole will be to keep intransigent on priorities which are really absolute, what you are completely able to do. Between April and June, you will be well inspired with regard to placements, it is the moment to reconsider your budget differently, to make changes. That will help you to start to make savings, or to enlarge what you already have. The last three months of the year support money re-entries, even apart from your wages, it is the moment to claim what people owe you for a long time.

Virgo 2010 Love, Family and Social life Horoscope

The Jew Year will bring both good and bad news to most Virgos. Most of them may witness some sort of problems in the domestic front with their spouses and children. All these problems may arise because of career and money related problems. Virgo people may need to exercise enough caution and care as serious discord may lead to serious consequences. 2010-year Virgo horoscope also indicates anxieties and stressful situations bothering Virgo people in the first half of the year. Prudent and intelligent Virgos will play their games smartly to escape any serious problems.

LOVE

This year 2010 is announced animated! Indeed all goes very quickly in your eyes, and as of the beginning of January, you will have to travel by train moving. Your partner will give the rhythm, you will feel to control less the situation and the turning which your relation takes. It will be fundamental not to forget that in this situation, you can find many satisfactions, beyond your underground fears. You will advance favourably your relation in a constructive direction while making enter of imagination by the large door! Circumstances will prove to you that it is on this way that you will cross obstacles which in February particularly, made you shade. From May, you will advance resolutely with what appears really essential to you. You will have opportunity to simplify your relations all while enriching them. Leave free course to your passion inspiration, it is the moment if you are alone, not to be in your bubble, there are constructive meetings in the long run at the horizon! Whatever your situation, you evolve in the direction of a release of yourself and limits which from now on are exceeded.

RELATIONSHIP

The most important for you at the beginning of year, between January and April, will be to resist to the influence of certain people around you who don’t respect your fundamental values without having the air of it, you will have to be careful… While remaining courteous, you would make well check information which comes from outside, the communication tightens side of misunderstandings… The relational sky is cleared up as from April, it is the moment to look further into your bonds in all fields, you will have facilities of listening which will be appreciated, people will return you the elevator. Protect from the emotional movements which return you to limitations of the past, and benefit from this wind of freedom which supports your expression with complete freedom to remove you from your doubts which are not founded.

Virgo 2010 Education and Traveling Horoscope

One positive aspect of 2010 Virgo yearly horoscope is that most students will find it very encouraging and promising. Aspiring students and scholars will find the year very productive. Jon prospects for scholars will be very bright. Education related travelling is a distinct possibility for some Virgo people. In all, the New Year is very promising and bright for students, scholars, academicians and teachers.

Virgo 2010 Health Horoscope

The 2010-year Virgo horoscope for heath is very kind towards most Virgos. Most of them enjoy perfect health throughout the year especially the first half of the year. However, they may face moderate health problems related to digestive and circulatory systems. They may need to take care of health in the second part of the year. Relocation to other place may induce some stress to Virgos because of the shortage of income.

VITALITY

You overflow of energy at the beginning of year, your need for activity will be the best demonstration. However, emotional swells that you cross, although they are exciting and opening out tend to make you draw too largely from your reserves. Get away from your concerns through arts, you will have more than ever need to escape to reconstitute your nervous energy. Your entourage will enormously solicit you and you won’t have much time to occupy you of certain details on your life hygiene. It is as from April that you will have facilities to occupy you of certain details which will make go up your energy, in particular on your food. Some changes will put an end to stomach upsets which are accentuated by addition of activity you assumed at the beginning of year. Flee sedentarity, flee regularly, you need to rest completely, and to mobilize your muscular system.

Dec 09 - What about me?!

Hm........it seems lose touch with my blog for while....

In summary, about me for the past month including happy, sad, worry, confuse, ambivalence, (Up & Down)....mixture feeling

in the mid to end of Nov, fully focus on my study - the final exam of my life, might be. Spent on most of my times on it, esp BF. I was damn upset as i thought i gonna to be failed in the final paper. I didn't felt good as in short of time to manage to finish the last 3 questions, and it required of exam paper need to be passed in order to pass the whole unit. I couldn't release my tense at those few days after it. Been summer classes, just to precaution. To relax myself, and thus, i decided to take a short trip back home to visit my dear friends In SG & KL. I don't know still if this short trip was helpful or not.

Anyhow, i finally met my dears who i never met and not yet to meet each other for about 2 years plus. Ethan, he is such a lovely, adorable baby... oh my god, i wondered to bring him home with me. =p Sharon, she is one of my dears. Someone who i don't meet each other often but we're still stay close, understanding each other. This is what we called it "BF". And those, what we called it "Hi-Bye Friend", is to tell the person through cover of the book, never to be seek the truth and trying to understand in person. "眼见不尽为凭，耳听不见为真". The best way, to leave them alone up to their believing. Explanations are not important to them either, so, don't waste time on it. Why don't enjoy myself in a positive conditions. Fact is always the principal to tell the truth and tell peoples.

December, is about now. I really excited and i knew that i passed the paper which i upset of the exam paper. Also, i am graduating.....Really glad & happy of the effort put in it and outcome as what i wish to be. God is doing his work and plan me ahead.... Thank you Lord!!

Sometimes, i would like to prefer alone... to be alone while enjoying watching, listening and so.... keep myself lose touch with anyone, only in a space where belonging to myself. I think, perhaps, it is not a bad suggestion. Too tired to stay in argument, explanations, self-defensive. ..........Want to get a calming & happily life....

Wishing 2010 is a better year ahead. Sending off 2009, not a good year to me ...

Emotions VS Hormone

Emotions are uncontrollable .... easy get into impatient way as Hormone changing, terrible i know...!!Felt depress once a while at the noon.....

Pre-natal melancholia, i think i would belong to this kinda group of people one day...

I don't want, i don't willing to be this way... no ideas, just cant control it, maybe i just want "sayang"....but ...

might be , it was right... ... it shouldn't be this way... In rational, in realistic, should not be together, feeling is not everything...

She is right, no one can change anyone if the person come with these... even me... isn't it? no solution... no solution without one need to change.... seeing it is hard gonna to be....

before it gonna be worst, shouldn't think twice?

been years... nvr better.. maybe it is because that the earth is round and round.... really tiring.... i think the best way is .... to... leave me alone forever....

Anyhow, have to love myself more =)

EXAMS!!

Exam period~~~~!!!! November...

Extremely in hoping and it gonna be the last fight!! hohoho, i just can't wait, can't wait to get on stage and stand there to take my certificate front of peoples...!! :P ****cross finger**** praying hard on this...=) bless me my friends whoever read this then...

Gonna be the hardest one, and i will try to do the best. I leave it to God and he decide..By the way, thank you so much my dearest Father Lord, gave me such a great "gift" before the exam - scored the highest marks =D. I really excited of this and keep my smile on face =) ~~~~ at least, i feel less stress now. After exhausted for a couple weeks, this result really fantastic and injecting a faith onto me!!

Maybe little excitement and let me still awake now ;p have to force myself get in a nice sleep.... to get a start of revision...

**** cross finger ****

欢笑疗法

看报道，美国医疗机构正向癌症等长期病患提供各种欢笑疗法。 专家表示，欢笑能降低血压，改善呼吸，促进氧气循环，加强肌肉功能和减轻压力。

• 伊利洛州Zion的美国癌症治疗中心直接教病人大笑。
• 非盈利的“医疗欢笑”组织 (Rx Laughter) 用谐趣影片娱乐协助病人控制疼痛和促进心理健康。
• “世界笑声之旅” (world Laughter Tour) 训练欢笑俱乐部领导人，过去两三年美国约有20 多家医院要求提供训练。

对呀，“喜乐的心，乃是良药；忧伤的灵，使骨枯干” （箴言十七22） 为什么这样？

因为，上帝设计人类要笑。喜乐有益身心，因为这是上帝向我们所定的旨意。（参帖撒罗尼迦前书五16至18）

若患绝症，失业，失恋，家破人亡。。。。。。痛苦没顶，笑不出来，这么办？

这时，更需要笑，因为现实已经够苦，苦心里也苦，便是苦上加苦。

委屈笑不出来怎么办？说到底，人的尽头是死，有什么值得欢笑？

是的，所以主耶稣说：“要因你们的名记录在天上欢喜." (路加福音十20）不必为世事大悲大喜。一切都如镜花水月，很快过去。除非有永生，除非有天堂，人没有希望。

所以，主耶稣又说：“人若因我辱骂你们，逼迫你们，捏造各样的坏话毁谤你们。。。。。。因当喜乐，因为你们在天上的赏赐是大的。” （马太福音五11至12）要看得远，要看到天上，这样才笑得真，笑得久。


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After read this, will try to learn and smile/laugh. I need strength from you, pray for wisdom as well. ... .. gotta burning out from these studies....

失落感

一丝的失落感，当一道消息悄悄帘入眼中，真真假假，是是非非。。。

一切都该恢复正常，不是吗？

一字一句，都是需要勇气去接受，放开怀抱地接受。。。。。。

亲爱的朋友，祝福你，希望快乐能再次降临在你的世界 :)

All the best....

Clips of the day

Today, browsed few videos that have been posted on some website. Couple of them caught attention of my eyes. I love the production, the ideas, and the music. They are perfectly fixed to the video clip. Hence, i would like to share with everyone here.

This prewedding film described a true story of a couple. How a guy go after his dream girl from tough to soft, from like to love; he won her heart eventually.... is a sweet film, nice, touching (i think because of music... lolz)

Here You are ... ....

Pat & Ley Cinematic Prewedding Film "Bubble Tea" from Paper Cranes Productions on Vimeo.

This is the video clip of their wedding day. How touching ... how sweet...what a blessing & happiness wedding. I feels that God did his work ...:)

Pat & Ley Cinematic Wedding Trailer from Paper Cranes Productions on Vimeo.

If any of you thinking of take video for your day, i would suggest this website . Take a look at it and if you are interested. They are located at Sydney and i would not say strongly recommend. Because, i like it only based on what i saw from it and do your own inquiry with them for further interested.

In term of business, i guess it would be a trend .... pictures are great, but video worth more of meaning ... and differ experiences...haha...

a thought

一些人，一些事，选择性的忘记。。。这样生活就会简单了吗？或许会，也或许不会。。。 但是明确的是，记忆力变差了

No matter how, follow your way, your feeling to do it so... make it simple..

Stay happily and enjoy it...

Slack + Sick ??

Times are quick.... early of October and year of 2010 just around the corner. Another 10 years...

How many of us and how many 10 yrs in our life?!

Passed a blissful and blessing birthday... passed 2 times of 10 years and sooner it gonna to be another 3rd 10 yrs of my life... cant believe so... haha.. anyhow, uploaded some pics on the day and here is the link : Birthday Collections

No celebration, no planning, no cake, no much on mind for the day of the year. BUT, i enjoyed the day with good friends, family....

I supposed to do my journal and assignments now. Too slacking.... What's wrong? looking at the calendar which pasted on the wall and in front of me.... what i going to be after these? seems there is not any target on the road for me yet... kinda losing the way...

Today, feeling sick, weak body, no motivation, slacking, ambivalent, Am i gonna sick or just psychological moment? everywhere of body feeling sore, sore throat and dry, brain working slow.... i counted it as slacking....!! :)

Got onto bed early last night but almost late to work. Wonder why so tired? is my body trying to transmit some messages to me? body alert? lolz....I reckons that i need to take more care about my health.

Anyway... need to find my drive back and move on with the workloads....

野火烧不尽，春风吹又生

一天一夜前，一些事情又来不断地干扰莫名的情绪。还真的是“野火烧不尽，春风吹又生”。。。 。。。

其实，很多事是可以很果断，但都没有做任何的决定。面对不同人的要求，请求， 犹豫不决。。。 。。。 为何在这么多事发生后，还来这套？真的没有答案 ............

所以，对你的问题，暂且搁下，拭目以待。。。 。。。总之， 对于你们的问题，一切交托予祂。。。

出奇的是，心情不如意想中的波折，无措。。。 哈哈。。。 maybe it's what we called that to believe in Jesus's strength =)

CHANCE

CHANGE - A new Change... is not about chances.

September - My lovely month of the year and is about time to pamper myself. I wanna to get a new phrase and refreshing myself for the following months throughout the year.

A change is about from head to toes. HAHAHA.... Of course, i need a hair cut that i never tried before - Short hair. Some clothes, jackets, skirt, dress, boot, shoes, scarf... well... totally change a new style of ME.... Not only to change the outlook of me, but also the inside of ME.....=)

This is not bad for trying... hahaha.... BUT, i really don't get used to it - Short Hair!!! A picture as below showed that how i looks like in short hair, and post more later days... :P


By the way, i found a song really great in the meaning of "change". It gives me the spirit of Christianity, as well as, highly encouragement & keep me with the strong feeling to shout out :"I WANT to CHANGEeeEee!!" I love the melody, and with guitar; esp the ending and the starting of the song!! oh YES!! ^^



Change - Taylor Swift


and it's a sad picture, the final blow hits you
somebody else gets what you wanted again
you know it's all the same, another time and place
repeating history and you're getting sick of it
but i believe in whatever you do
and i'll do anything to see it through

because these things will change
can you feel it now?
these walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down
this revolution, the time will come
for us to finally win
we sing hallelujah, we sing hallelujah

so we've been outnumbered
raided and now cornered
it's hard to fight when the fight ain't fair
we're getting stronger now
find things they nver found
they might be bigger
but we're faster and never scared
you can walk away, say we don't need this
but there's something in your eyes
says we can beat this

tonight we'll stand, get off our knees
fight for what we're worked for all these years
and the battle was long, it's the fight of our lives
but we'll stand up champions tonight

it was the night things changed
do you see it now?
these walls that they put up to hold us back fell down
it's a revolution, throw your hands up
cause we never gave in
and we'll sing hallelujah, we sang hallelujah
hallelujah

Combo~~~

To all victims who are affected by Typhoon Morakot .




SATU MALAYSIA




I like it so much and feeling damn well with strong nationality while listen to this song!!! Have a go and listen to it and believes you will like it so much :P

--> CLICK Here
Happy Birthday Malaysia

Cut kilos with pills, can you really do it

Taking diet pills may seem like the easiest weight-loss option but are they right for you? In today's blog, taken from Diabetic Living, we explore this issue.

Swallowing a pill – is it really enough to make you lose weight? The short answer is
no – not on its own. The sad reality is there is no substitute for eating less and being more active.

Diet medications may kick-start your efforts to trim down and speed up initial weigh loss, but results often come at a price! They can put a hole in your pocket that sees you lose money faster than kilos and may interact with other medications you use or foods you eat. Or, you may be put off by unpleasant side effects.

Even if pills help you shed kilos, they may not keep the weight off or reduce your risk of heart disease or other complications of being overweight. What you definitely cannot expect from pills is a long-term solution to your weight woes. Keeping it off permanently depends on adopting a lifestyle that combines healthy eating with regular exercise.

When can you turn to medication?
Diet pills are known to the health professionals as weight-loss medication therapy. They are an option when you have a body mass index (BMI) over 30, and you don’t have medical conditions such as cardiovascular disease or diabetes, and you’ve failed to drop kilos despite making the necessary lifestyle changes. These changes include reducing your fat intake to less than 30 per cent of your total daily caloric intake and doing at least 15 minutes of low-intensity exercise each day. If you have diabetes or
a cardiovascular condition, a BMI of 27 may qualify you for weight-loss medication therapy, owing to your increased potential health risks.

Diet pill pointers
1 Go for gradual weight loss. Whether you’re losing 1kg per week or per month, the important thing is sustaining it. This way you’ll develop habits that will keep the kilos off for your lifetime.

2 Eat healthily. Opt for a low-fat, low-kilojoule eating plan recommended by a health professional. You will stick more successfully to a balanced, satisfying diet.

3 Boost your activity level. This will kick-start your metabolism, encourage fat burning and increase your energy.

4 Read food labels carefully. Make sure you choose low-fat options with blood glucose friendly carbohydrate levels.

5 Check your medications. Talk to your doctor or pharmacist to ensure there is no risk they’ll interact with your weight-loss pills.

6 Keep track of your progress. Have routine weigh-ins. Studies show hopping on the scales daily or weekly encourages more consistent long-term weight loss.

Homeless

Home? where is my home? I wana go home .... When will i get done?

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky, I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
'Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

Summaries for Time Being

Ha.... been while didn't post any entry. August!! Just done my winter school ... the past two months are passed quick. Started first week of semester 2, no much feeling to this. Just another new semester for me and new units and works. Only the different, is, more new faces in this course. Final... this is Final~!!

Life is not much surprising me, as usual. Nothing super happy and rough things always. The future? too much expectations, too much hopes, too much wishes... trying my best to pursue ..

Time to give up, time to pick up? not sure either. Something been embedded and it likely to be appear now.. should i? or not? Bigger guess, just let it be then...

Argh!!!! enjoy the sunny and bright days so much.. now on is changing to wet weather again!!! frustrated ....!!!

I wonder to end this winter soon and my flavour sesson is here - SPRING~~!!

14 weeks .... fight time!!!

By end this entry, i would like to pray for everyone and even my family...

Dear Jesus,

Pray for my mum - her healthy, and the relationship of family. All my dear friends, their life, their financial, their health and work.. Pray in Jesus name. Amen.