After a long day flights from Perth -> KL --> Kuching --> Sibu, We were so tired. Due to public holiday and school holidays, there is not any direct flight from KL to Sibu. Therefore, we need to transit at Kuching to Sibu. Guess what?! air ticket damn expensive as well. Sigh... but we don't have options...
By 10 pm, we reached Sibu Hospital. I couldn't blieve that how lousy the facilities of the hospital, how scary of the lifts there, how young of doctors.. .. Sigh.... She was so awake and look at us. She looked happy while saw us back. Tears shed in my heart, she looks so slim and much older.... She almost cried while she heard about my elder brother not feeling well. He wasn't feeling well with stomach and vomitted few times at the night before flight. He also almost 'kena' stopped at arrival of LCCT due to H1N1 virus checking. We were safe at home eventually. God is so great as he is doing his grace.
Almost 1am, i went to sleep after a night without sleep. By 2 plus, mum woke me up as she heard dad went out. We were thought he out to hospital. By 5 plus, mum up and wondered if i follow her to hospital with sis in law and my eldest brother. BUT, we reached there and shocked as dad and my eldest brother were not at hospital. YES!!! My elder brother admitted to private specialist. Fortunately, there is not another case. He is doing all right now.
All my relatives, aunties, uncles and even my family rush in and out hospital everyday. Some of them look tired, some of them seems worrying, some of them quiet .. But, my grandma still suffering with her sickness. She is falling weaker and weaker. My mum also not feeling well as she need to rush in and out with food delivering, look after grandma as well.
Until last afternoon, she really was suffering with pains, she angered, frustrated. She took away her oxygen mask. I tried to put it back, and she push away my hand and my uncle's hand too. I can't do anything while i saw her in pains and suffering. Finally, i cried and i went out of the room with full of tears. We don't want she see us cry for her as she will cry too. This is my first time and i saw my grandpa with tears while i outside of room. He told me that how suffer of my grand-grandparent last time and so......
We are expected worsen situation as she might not live longer. All of the relatives were arrived from other towns, other contries by last night. None of us attached with smile. We are getting ready what shall be to prepare for. Dad is the one who busiest with all the preparations. Before we left hospital at the night, and i went into room to see her. My feeling told me so that she might not longer the night. I was so anxiety, so unpeaceful for whole night. I couldn't sleep with tears.
I forced myself to do some reading as i not yet read anything for my coming exam. By 3 plus, my eldest brother called my dad up. He said :"grandma said that she wanna leave now." I ran out and stood there while dad answered the call. After that, mum, sis in law, dad and me rush to hospital. We called up all the aunties and uncles.
This is my really first time to see all my aunties and uncles, even my parent with tears. I almost lost my way and wonder what to do so. She almost gone!! All the memories of us, recall me back to the past.
Thanks god, she is all right now. Anyhow, i am hoping that she will leaving without pains. Please, Jesus please, take her back to you with joy. I rather to see her without pains.
There is another incident, my younger cousin sister faint as we all stood there and waiting quietly at the room. Sighh........ My aunty said that she always don't eat rice, fruits, vegetables, and even meats.... Haizzz.... Such a young girl but having a weak body, what for?!?!
Everyone is full of tired now. Some of us take term and resting now in order to look after her. There is another day to fight with and we need energy. Also, some mixture feeling appearing to me, and i don't know what shall i be as i leaving sibu by tomorrow noon. Sigh..... i blieve so, my brothers also don't want to leave and stay longer. Is this called 'LIFE?"
Such a bad times .... Strenght...!!! Faith!!!!!....
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