偶尔复杂，偶尔空虚，偶尔发呆；不知，不懂，不明；泪水只能打转，只能强忍，不能呼吸，只能回吞；任何事只能自己扛，自己面对。
路很难走可还是得走，呼吸会痛可还是得呼吸，渴望得到家人的支持，但，又能希望他们如何的明白？
每天每天，告诉自己，“要坚强”,“要洒脱”。。。 。。。
在东京铁塔第一次眺望
看灯火模仿坠落的星光
我终於到达但却更悲伤
一个人完成我们的梦想
你总说时间还很多
你可以等我
以前我不懂得
未必明天就有以后
想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛连沉默也痛
遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛
没看你脸上张扬过哀伤
那是种多么寂寞的倔强
你拆了城墙让我去流浪
在原地等我把自己捆绑
你没说你也会软弱
需要依赖我
我就装不晓得
自由移动自我地过
想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛连沉默也痛
遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛
我发誓不再说谎了
多爱你就会抱你多紧的
我的微笑都假了
灵魂像飘浮着你在就好了
我发誓不让你等候
陪你做想做的无论什么
我越来越像贝壳
怕心被人触碰你回来那就好了
能重来那就好了
当世界不知不觉的变了
有时候我怀念以前的我
作的梦虽然远远的
想像是一种快乐
拥有了同时也失去什黱
而眷恋原来会带来软弱
你让我在雾里成熟心开始曲折
我不想舍得不想懂得
是谁惹谁言不由衷
说谎伤害都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什黱
我不想舍得不想懂得
谁说割爱才更深刻
彼此依赖是爱不是负荷
能握著手就是感动的
离开不会太悲伤
有些心情该释放
直到眼泪它自己落下
才发现骗不了自己
其实很爱你
现在学着去遗忘
躲开有你的地方
回忆被谁放在书架上
把它从最高的地方落下
感动越是深刻
寂寞就越伤人喔
每个人的心里都会有一段伤痕
像白纸的天真
彷佛被你伤的好深
相爱不需要理由
离开也没有理由
挽留
现在学着去遗忘
躲开有你的地方
回忆被谁放在书架上
把它从最高的地方落下
感动越是深刻
寂寞就越伤人喔
每个人的心里都会有一段伤痕
像白纸的天真
彷佛被你伤的好深
相爱不需要理由
离开也没有理由
挽留
感动越是深刻
寂寞就越伤人喔
每个人的心里都会有一段伤痕
像白纸的天真
彷佛被你伤的好深
相爱不需要理由
离开也没有理由
挽留
我在向前走却像在退后
我在用想念狂欢寂寞
越快乐就越失落
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会坠落
怀念这宽阔的天空
虽然那里空气很稀薄
我努力想起你笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你再学会放弃
我不想忘记你
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你苦也没关系
用祝福和感激勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起
一个人不懂什么是拥有
两个人不懂怎么把握
越在乎就越脆弱
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会坠落
怀念这宽阔的天空
虽然那里空气很稀薄
我努力想起你笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你再学会放弃
我不想忘记你
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你苦也没关系
用祝福和感激勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起
我努力想起你笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你再学会放弃
我不想忘记你
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你苦也没关系
用祝福和感激勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起
We were both young when I first saw you
当我第一次见到你的时候我们都还很年轻
I close my eyes and the flashback starts
我闭上双眼 我们的故事在我脑海里一幕幕回放
I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air
炎炎夏日我站在阳台上
See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
看着这些灯，派对和舞会礼服
See you make your way through the crowd
看你穿过拥挤的人群
And say hello, little did I know
跟我打招呼 我不知道
That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
你就是罗密欧 你朝我扔小石子
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
我爸爸说 离朱丽叶远点
And I was crying on the staircase, begging you please don't go
我在楼梯上哭了 求你不要离开
And I said
我说
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
罗密欧 带我去一个我们能单独在一起的地方吧
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
我会等待的 现在能做的只有逃跑了
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
你会成为王子而我就是公主
It's a love story
这是个爱情故事
Baby, just say yes
宝贝 你就答应我吧
So I sneak out to the garden to see you
我悄悄溜到花园去看你
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
我们都很安静 因为如果被他们知道我们就惨了
So close your eyes, escape this town for a little while
所以闭上你的双眼 逃离这个城市一会儿吧
Oh, oh, oh
'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
因为你是罗密欧 我是红A字
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
我爸爸说 离朱丽叶远点
But you were everything to me, I was begging you please don't go
但是你就是我的一切 我请求你不要离开
And I said
我说
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
罗密欧 带我去一个只有我们俩的地方吧
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
我会等的 我们所能做的就只有逃跑了
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
你会成为我的王子而我就是你的公主
It's a love story
这是个爱情故事
Baby, just say yes
宝贝 答应我吧
Romeo, save me, they’re trying to tell me how to feel
罗密欧 快解救我吧 他们试图告诉我如何去感受
This love is difficult, but it’s real
这段爱情困难重重 但是这是真实的爱
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
不要害怕 我们会摆脱困难的
It's a love story
这是个爱情故事
Baby, just say yes
宝贝 答应我吧
I got tired of waiting, wondering if you were ever coming around
我已厌倦了等待 我想知道你究竟还会不会回来
my faith in you was fading
我对你的信心也在减少
When I met you on the outskirts of town
当我在郊区遇到你
And I said
我说
Romeo, save me, I’ve been feeling so alone
罗密欧 快解救我吧 我一直感到很孤独
I keep waiting for you but you never come
我一直都在等你 但是你却没有出现
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think
我脑海里想的全是这个 我不知道还能想些什么
he knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring
他跪在地上 拿出一个戒指
And said
说道
Marry me Juliet you'll never have to be alone
嫁给我吧 朱丽叶 你不会再感到孤单了
I love you and that's all I really know
我爱你 这是我所知道的
I talked to your dad you'll pick out a white dress
我和你的爸爸谈过了 你可以挑一条白色的裙子
It's a love story
这是个爱情故事
Baby, just say yes
宝贝 答应我吧
Oh, oh, oh
We were both young when I first saw you
当我第一次见到你的时候我们都还很年轻
Say you're sorry
That face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back
and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you
Holding on
The days drag on
Stupid girl,
I should have known, I should have known
I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you
And your white horse, to come around
Baby I was naive,
Got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
My mistake,
I didn't wanna be in love
You had to fight to have the upper hand
I had so many dreams
About you and me
Happy endings
Now I know
I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you
And your white horse, to come around
And there you are on your knees,
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm sooo sorry
Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday
who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rearview mirror disappearing now
And its too late for you and your white horse
Now its too late for you and your white horse,
to catch me now
Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa
Try and catch me now
Oh, it's too late
To catch me now
你撑着雨伞 接我那次
已经足够我 记得一辈子
我懂後来你 不是不坚持
爱情本来就 没万无一失
泪水离开了 你的手指
那不如让它 留在这信纸
我想女孩子 最贴心的是
让爱的人选 结束的方式
我最幸福的事 当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰 让我们像当时拥抱最後一次
最幸福的事 吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人 在左边心口保留位置 是最幸福的事
可惜爱不是 童话故事
不能够永远 依赖着王子
再难过其实 只剩两个字
我怎麽忍心 为难你解释
我最幸福的事 当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰 让我们像当时拥抱最後一次
最幸福的事 吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人 在左边心口保留位置 是最幸福的事
那一阵子有你 美得不像现实
多高兴每一幕 都微笑着静止
我最幸福的事 牵着你的日子
一段爱从开始 即使分开我们都对彼此诚实
最幸福的事 对那片海用力大喊永远的样子
想得起的事 那天和你傻笑着认识 是最幸福的事
幸福从我手中溜走了，我握不住也握不紧。
是我的粗心以及一切的一切，让我现在这么样的难过。
你的眼中不会有我了，我知道。
你不会再像以前那样关心我了，我知道。
你不会再像以前那样哄我了，我知道。
你不会再像以前有那样温柔的眼神了，我知道。
我们的故事都变了，不是吗？
开头写的如此无头绪，就连结尾也不可以变漂亮点吗？
曾经的“幸福”，是我一厢情愿哦？
再顾虑我都快疯了。
顾虑，成了我肩上的包袱，压得快喘不过气。
是我一手造成的，对不起。
就算不曾喜欢，也都算了。
曾经感觉幸福就好。
爱，悄悄走了。
幸福，悄悄走了。
多完美的爱， 也有缺口， 然而， 爱 见了底 在流血了。。。 爱 可以简单吗？ 爱的底， 究竟有多深？ 爱， 枯了。。。 。。。
Tuesday 31 March 2009
Thursday 26 March 2009
Unknown
Problems comes, time to settle... ...is not about avoiding or else all of these problems becoming endless....
Time to think, what is the right way...trying hard to find out answers and wondering why that so, but nothing... ...
Time to learn, is not about ignore, is about to learn confront it and don't to do things that can't even convince you.
Family are the best supporters and best advisers too, share your thoughts and feelings. They might not able to help but they are able to give suggestions.
Future is uncertainty, but is significantly to plan; is not about waiting day coming without planning. Be carefully, what is your desire? Bear in mind, every decision is not joke and simply, think before do it ......
Obstacles always there but how to settle it and is about skills and wisdom. Don't lying to oneself, be truthful.
Feeling always guiding us about directions, but, unless the feeling is gone away from you. No ideas what's wrong, is this oneself wanted?
God is the one who is planning us, nothing failure done by him. But, human being differently... ...
Seeking is less helpful sometimes, or, stay cool and think about it before actions... ...
Praying hard is one of the solutions then........
Time to think, what is the right way...trying hard to find out answers and wondering why that so, but nothing... ...
Time to learn, is not about ignore, is about to learn confront it and don't to do things that can't even convince you.
Family are the best supporters and best advisers too, share your thoughts and feelings. They might not able to help but they are able to give suggestions.
Future is uncertainty, but is significantly to plan; is not about waiting day coming without planning. Be carefully, what is your desire? Bear in mind, every decision is not joke and simply, think before do it ......
Obstacles always there but how to settle it and is about skills and wisdom. Don't lying to oneself, be truthful.
Feeling always guiding us about directions, but, unless the feeling is gone away from you. No ideas what's wrong, is this oneself wanted?
God is the one who is planning us, nothing failure done by him. But, human being differently... ...
Seeking is less helpful sometimes, or, stay cool and think about it before actions... ...
Praying hard is one of the solutions then........
Thursday 12 March 2009
Two days cover up
A Short Conversation
Classmate N: Are you ok? you looks pale...
Momo : Yes, i still ok. Did i really looks pale?
At this time, Classmate Y also has some talks
Classmate Y: I agree too. Recently you looks listless and really pale. What's wrong with you?
Momo : Apparently so? (she smiles)
Classmate Y: What's wrong with you? sickness? Why don't see doctor?
Momo : Don't worry and i will be fine.
She smile with all responds!
A Night without Tears
Finally, there is a night without tears. Guess, it is a good start then. The night pretty awake and watched drama without any thoughts. Guess what?! God is listening to her, because the next day morning woke up with a cool day. Weather is changing from hot and warm to cooling days.
Marketing Class & Perception
Selective Perception Process of Perception had been taught at the Marketing class last night. This remind me, 'Perception' that i saw somewhere not long while (Sigh~~!!) There was a cartoon also showed by lecturer, even worst. It stated "Why we'll never understand each other?" This is a depth thought topic between male and female. Is that really about selective perception? Is that apply to relationship as they've used in marketing practices in order to understand consumer more?
L.O.V.E
Quoted from somewhere noted that "If love is becomes painful,its time to let go and save your life,but just keep in mind.If love is true,pain is never a reason to let go."
Strongly agree with the statement!!
Useless Tears
Almost 2am now, is chatting with a dear friend C. She is doing all right still but only few problems with her husband. That's what i worry most about her. But, it is good and she gonna be strong as she still need to protect her baby girl. Genetic of Mother, guess so!
Nice to catch up with her since left m'sa, but useless tears won the game. It only 24 hours, and cried again. Feeling so empty, so pains, so lose... ...Missing so much, so much, so much.... 心很痛，很思念，很迷失，很想痛哭。。。 。。。
Dearest God,
请赐予他和他家人力量，不论面对任何的难题，都迎刃而解。祝福和赐福一切的困难，我愿交托于您，洗净一切一切的罪恶。。。 这乃是奉基督耶稣圣名而求的，阿门。
Classmate N: Are you ok? you looks pale...
Momo : Yes, i still ok. Did i really looks pale?
At this time, Classmate Y also has some talks
Classmate Y: I agree too. Recently you looks listless and really pale. What's wrong with you?
Momo : Apparently so? (she smiles)
Classmate Y: What's wrong with you? sickness? Why don't see doctor?
Momo : Don't worry and i will be fine.
She smile with all responds!
A Night without Tears
Finally, there is a night without tears. Guess, it is a good start then. The night pretty awake and watched drama without any thoughts. Guess what?! God is listening to her, because the next day morning woke up with a cool day. Weather is changing from hot and warm to cooling days.
Marketing Class & Perception
Selective Perception Process of Perception had been taught at the Marketing class last night. This remind me, 'Perception' that i saw somewhere not long while (Sigh~~!!) There was a cartoon also showed by lecturer, even worst. It stated "Why we'll never understand each other?" This is a depth thought topic between male and female. Is that really about selective perception? Is that apply to relationship as they've used in marketing practices in order to understand consumer more?
L.O.V.E
Quoted from somewhere noted that "If love is becomes painful,its time to let go and save your life,but just keep in mind.If love is true,pain is never a reason to let go."
Strongly agree with the statement!!
Useless Tears
Almost 2am now, is chatting with a dear friend C. She is doing all right still but only few problems with her husband. That's what i worry most about her. But, it is good and she gonna be strong as she still need to protect her baby girl. Genetic of Mother, guess so!
Nice to catch up with her since left m'sa, but useless tears won the game. It only 24 hours, and cried again. Feeling so empty, so pains, so lose... ...Missing so much, so much, so much.... 心很痛，很思念，很迷失，很想痛哭。。。 。。。
Dearest God,
请赐予他和他家人力量，不论面对任何的难题，都迎刃而解。祝福和赐福一切的困难，我愿交托于您，洗净一切一切的罪恶。。。 这乃是奉基督耶稣圣名而求的，阿门。
Wednesday 11 March 2009
爱你是我一辈子的幸福
The third days from 8th March to now, the feeling more calming and tears stop a while since morning, but arching are still.
She be aside still no matter what making him lost the point at this point. She is patient with it.
The exam that she attended yesterday and hoping not to be worsen. She is not confident with it at all. From now on, she stands firmly with what her decision and work hard with heaps of assignments follow by now. She believes God has positive answer with her as she found it and why this is her decision.
She is not a loser, and she won't give up with it. Time will prove it so.
爱你是我一辈子的幸福，不论如何艰辛，事实胜于雄辩。不是固执，不是不服输，而是执著，而是爱情。
She be aside still no matter what making him lost the point at this point. She is patient with it.
The exam that she attended yesterday and hoping not to be worsen. She is not confident with it at all. From now on, she stands firmly with what her decision and work hard with heaps of assignments follow by now. She believes God has positive answer with her as she found it and why this is her decision.
She is not a loser, and she won't give up with it. Time will prove it so.
爱你是我一辈子的幸福，不论如何艰辛，事实胜于雄辩。不是固执，不是不服输，而是执著，而是爱情。
Tuesday 10 March 2009
God has a positive answer
人在碰到困難時，很容易會沮喪。
不過，無論受到折磨或者痛苦，都不用因此失去信心，
因為神一直在我們心裡面做著奇妙的工作。
It is easy to get discouraged when things are going bad.
But we shouldn't lose heart, because God is at work in our lives,
even in the midst of pain and suffering.
記著：當下一次你的小木屋著火時，
那可能只是神美妙恩典的表 徵而已。
Remember, next time your little hut is burning to the ground
it just may be a smoke signal that summons the grace of God.
在所有我們所認為負面的事情，神都是有正面答案的。
For all the negative things we have to say to ourselves,
God has a positive answer.
你說：「我累了。」
神說：「我讓你休息。 」(太11:28-30)
You say: "I'm too tired"
God says: I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28-30)
你 說：「沒有人愛我。」
神 說：「我愛你。」 (約 3:16 & 約 3:34)
You say: "Nobody really loves me"
God says: I love you (John 3:16 & John 3:34)
你說：「我做不下去了。」
神說：「我的恩典 夠你支持下去。」
(林後 12:9 & 詩 91:15)
You say: "I can't go on"
God says: My grace is sufficient (II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)
你說：「我想不通。」
神說：「我引領你前行。 」(箴 3:5-6)
You say: "I can't figure things out"
God says: I will direct your steps (Proverbs 3:5-6)
你說：「我做不到。」
神說：「你什麼都做得到 。」(腓 4:13)
You say: "I can't do it"
God says: You can do all things (Philippians 4:13)
你說：「我不配。」
神說：「你配。」 (林後 9:8)
You say: "I'm not able"
God says: I am able (II Corinthians 9:8)
你說：「這麼做不 值得。」
神說：「做了，你馬上就會覺得 值得了。」 (羅 8:28)
You say: "It's not worth it"
God says: It will be worth it (Roman 8:28)
你說：「我無法原諒自己。」
神說：「我原諒你。」 (約壹 1:9 & 羅 8:1)
You say: "I can't forgive myself"
God says: I Forgive you (I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)
你說：「我是窮苦的。」
神說：「我供應你一切所需。」 ( 腓 4:19)
You say: "I'm poor"
God says: I will supply all your needs (Philippians 4:19)
你說：「我害怕。」
神說：「我所賜給你的不是膽怯的心。」 (提後 1:7)
You say: "I'm afraid"
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear (II Timothy 1:7)
你說：「我常常在擔憂、受挫。」
神說：「放下你的重擔，我為你承擔。」 ( 彼後 5:7)
You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"
God says: Cast all your cares on ME (I Peter 5:7)
不過，無論受到折磨或者痛苦，都不用因此失去信心，
因為神一直在我們心裡面做著奇妙的工作。
It is easy to get discouraged when things are going bad.
But we shouldn't lose heart, because God is at work in our lives,
even in the midst of pain and suffering.
記著：當下一次你的小木屋著火時，
那可能只是神美妙恩典的表 徵而已。
Remember, next time your little hut is burning to the ground
it just may be a smoke signal that summons the grace of God.
在所有我們所認為負面的事情，神都是有正面答案的。
For all the negative things we have to say to ourselves,
God has a positive answer.
你說：「我累了。」
神說：「我讓你休息。 」(太11:28-30)
You say: "I'm too tired"
God says: I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28-30)
你 說：「沒有人愛我。」
神 說：「我愛你。」 (約 3:16 & 約 3:34)
You say: "Nobody really loves me"
God says: I love you (John 3:16 & John 3:34)
你說：「我做不下去了。」
神說：「我的恩典 夠你支持下去。」
(林後 12:9 & 詩 91:15)
You say: "I can't go on"
God says: My grace is sufficient (II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)
你說：「我想不通。」
神說：「我引領你前行。 」(箴 3:5-6)
You say: "I can't figure things out"
God says: I will direct your steps (Proverbs 3:5-6)
你說：「我做不到。」
神說：「你什麼都做得到 。」(腓 4:13)
You say: "I can't do it"
God says: You can do all things (Philippians 4:13)
你說：「我不配。」
神說：「你配。」 (林後 9:8)
You say: "I'm not able"
God says: I am able (II Corinthians 9:8)
你說：「這麼做不 值得。」
神說：「做了，你馬上就會覺得 值得了。」 (羅 8:28)
You say: "It's not worth it"
God says: It will be worth it (Roman 8:28)
你說：「我無法原諒自己。」
神說：「我原諒你。」 (約壹 1:9 & 羅 8:1)
You say: "I can't forgive myself"
God says: I Forgive you (I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)
你說：「我是窮苦的。」
神說：「我供應你一切所需。」 ( 腓 4:19)
You say: "I'm poor"
God says: I will supply all your needs (Philippians 4:19)
你說：「我害怕。」
神說：「我所賜給你的不是膽怯的心。」 (提後 1:7)
You say: "I'm afraid"
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear (II Timothy 1:7)
你說：「我常常在擔憂、受挫。」
神說：「放下你的重擔，我為你承擔。」 ( 彼後 5:7)
You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"
God says: Cast all your cares on ME (I Peter 5:7)
《溫柔》（還你自由版）
Off the light, turn it on with full screen and click on HQ version. Calm down yourself and turn speaker slightly louder, this song really meaningful and nice
阿信唱這首《溫柔》（還你自由版）。每次到了間奏，隨著鋼琴伴奏的“獨白”一直醖釀到整個band進來的“撕吼”，現場燈光刹那照亮了地球，整個心都被撕裂了…突然間，全世界，只剩下音樂。
我深深的着迷，深深地体会。。。 尤其在独白那段：“如果有一天你对我说，你要离开我，我想我不会强求，我也不会再挽留，只因为我所能留给你，最好，最美的，也是最后的温柔， 你会听到我跟你说，我给你自由，我给你自由， 我给你自由，我给你全部全部自由。。。。”
心情很平静，虽然内心很痛，在呐喊。。 。 可我明白，付出的爱，不求回报，我会安静地等待。。。
阿信唱這首《溫柔》（還你自由版）。每次到了間奏，隨著鋼琴伴奏的“獨白”一直醖釀到整個band進來的“撕吼”，現場燈光刹那照亮了地球，整個心都被撕裂了…突然間，全世界，只剩下音樂。
我深深的着迷，深深地体会。。。 尤其在独白那段：“如果有一天你对我说，你要离开我，我想我不会强求，我也不会再挽留，只因为我所能留给你，最好，最美的，也是最后的温柔， 你会听到我跟你说，我给你自由，我给你自由， 我给你自由，我给你全部全部自由。。。。”
心情很平静，虽然内心很痛，在呐喊。。 。 可我明白，付出的爱，不求回报，我会安静地等待。。。
Monday 9 March 2009
Tears & Pains
Heart pain and stomach pain altogether to keep these on...
傻妹woke up with tears in pain worst even and not yet get any answers to encounter all these, convince pains go away...
Faith in love might not belonging to anymore; the more effort in but pains while harvest...
Dear God,
Where are those strength, energy, and faith? they all run away without ways to get them back. She has been prayed hard and strive for all difficulties while encounter them all along, even went to wrong way and tried to get herself back. Is punishment?
Please provide wisdom and strength, she is mostly collapse by these. Let's to set pains and tears free, follow with cheerful life for her.
No matter what is the actual plan, what she should deserve for, and she won't to be given up ...
Please blessing her in the way of healing, or even faith healing. She decided that to keep each episodes and store them in the deepest of heart, and waiting to come with the dramatic changes. She rigid her belief, love as she believes god will bring her back to what she strive for all the way. This is not a silly but is conviction.
Pray in Jesus' name
傻妹woke up with tears in pain worst even and not yet get any answers to encounter all these, convince pains go away...
Faith in love might not belonging to anymore; the more effort in but pains while harvest...
Dear God,
Where are those strength, energy, and faith? they all run away without ways to get them back. She has been prayed hard and strive for all difficulties while encounter them all along, even went to wrong way and tried to get herself back. Is punishment?
Please provide wisdom and strength, she is mostly collapse by these. Let's to set pains and tears free, follow with cheerful life for her.
No matter what is the actual plan, what she should deserve for, and she won't to be given up ...
Please blessing her in the way of healing, or even faith healing. She decided that to keep each episodes and store them in the deepest of heart, and waiting to come with the dramatic changes. She rigid her belief, love as she believes god will bring her back to what she strive for all the way. This is not a silly but is conviction.
Pray in Jesus' name
Endless ...
又是三月，但一切的一切还有转机吗？一切的一切都归于零，那个从封闭的门渐渐敞开，不顾一切的投入，然而又一次次的受伤，难道只是另一个的考验吗？
不该真的不该开启那封闭的门，很痛很伤，泪痕不断不断划过。。。 心犹如万箭穿心，很刺痛。。 这一路以来的坚持，是对的吗？即使他人一路以来的不祝福，做了不该的本分，都坚持自己的那当初接纳的爱。。。
难怪人人都说承洛都是没保障的，只有这傻妹一路以来保持着这信念，还奋不顾身呢，结果付诸流水。。。 。。。 还惹上一身伤。。。
好不想放手，可时候已到，不得不放。。。 这是属于过去式了没？若是？傻妹还是希望， 即使那过去还是一个可实现的梦。。。真好笑，三年又是三月。。。
搵左甘累，得左一个吉(Cantonese) 是吗？
心如潮水，很澎湃，呼吸会疼，心抽蓄多一秒。。。。。。
The past wish to be a dream still, the present is really unknown, the future is uncertainty and unrealizable
Those prays were hopeless and gone. What is Faithful?? What is promises?? What is belief? Could i switch back to past rather get through these shits?
好心放手，好心分手，应一早放开我，不至于深陷泥沼，无法自拔。。。 。。。
不该真的不该开启那封闭的门，很痛很伤，泪痕不断不断划过。。。 心犹如万箭穿心，很刺痛。。 这一路以来的坚持，是对的吗？即使他人一路以来的不祝福，做了不该的本分，都坚持自己的那当初接纳的爱。。。
难怪人人都说承洛都是没保障的，只有这傻妹一路以来保持着这信念，还奋不顾身呢，结果付诸流水。。。 。。。 还惹上一身伤。。。
好不想放手，可时候已到，不得不放。。。 这是属于过去式了没？若是？傻妹还是希望， 即使那过去还是一个可实现的梦。。。真好笑，三年又是三月。。。
搵左甘累，得左一个吉(Cantonese) 是吗？
心如潮水，很澎湃，呼吸会疼，心抽蓄多一秒。。。。。。
The past wish to be a dream still, the present is really unknown, the future is uncertainty and unrealizable
Those prays were hopeless and gone. What is Faithful?? What is promises?? What is belief? Could i switch back to past rather get through these shits?
好心放手，好心分手，应一早放开我，不至于深陷泥沼，无法自拔。。。 。。。
Saturday 7 March 2009
回顾2008年底和2009年头
许久都没为自己写下日记，我的记忆在08年底和1至二月09年的年头。。。 。。。
A snapshot for the past few 3 months of 08/09
The day went home ... Was pissed off when check-in... is a damn good budget airline with a lousy services...
Reached KL and went japanese buffet at 1U... the decoration of xmas really nice...
Went PC Fair that day night... took pic of twin tower.... they look so great with lighting...
A gathering with ex-colleagues after i left .... Miss them so much and was fun with them -- dinner, drinking :)
A night with memories......
Back to Sibu after the memories night...A week at Sibu has been attended 4 weddings....
1st wedding: my elder brother
2nd: My high schoolmate - WLT's wedding
3rd wedding : KSH - Highschool mate
4th wedding:
Same day with KSH, so only the pic i took with them. Luckily their wedding located at the same hotel... haha...
Pity my friend as she had chicken pox that time, was that mean lucky? or meaningful?
Both of them are our mates as well. Everyone still surprising and wondering how their "chemical of love" started as they no even closer to each other in high school.... ...an unexpected love =)
The tallest building in Sarawak!! Hehe...it only 28th floor if not mistaken. What is the richest of Sarawak?? Land! of course! we not need high building hahaha....
My best friend's daughter, she is cute, damn cute man!!! solution of stopping crying, naughty --> eating !!... miss her so much...:)
Back to KL just nice 11 plus to 12 and saw fireworks...... A new year started -2009!! Happy "Niu" year
Day by day... a HK friend from Perth to KL visit finally....
Also, my eldest brother back from WA with her wife.... we all went for shopping, bring along my HK friend of course....
The Chinese New Year decoration of brother's hotel... Damn red but nice :P
Since awhile, we didn't get a shot
Time to go back Sibu for CNY......
House visiting - group of my primary schoolmates.......
"Rhinoceros" visited Sibu for most CNY...people suffering with flooding, An unhappy new year, affected daily life and business....... The other cities and towns of Sarawak also affected by flooding as raining everyday...... Sigh!! environment causes, political causes, and climate causes...
Due to bad weather, stay home most of the times.. Finally, a trip to kuching!!
Visited my friends who i hadn't met over 3 to 5 years
Gathering with gang of friends in Kuching....
Times running out.... holidays end real soon! A final week countdown at KL prior back to perth.
"lou shan" with ex-colleagues and final gathering. The first time as well as final time "lou shan" prior CNY end.
After lunch of "lou shan", we went K ...... =)
The final met up!! - Lunch
Friend C with her baby... She is cute and pretty, like smile all the times =) but vomited on me 2 times on that day... hahaha
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A snapshot for the past few 3 months of 08/09
The day went home ... Was pissed off when check-in... is a damn good budget airline with a lousy services...
Reached KL and went japanese buffet at 1U... the decoration of xmas really nice...
Went PC Fair that day night... took pic of twin tower.... they look so great with lighting...
A gathering with ex-colleagues after i left .... Miss them so much and was fun with them -- dinner, drinking :)
A night with memories......
Back to Sibu after the memories night...A week at Sibu has been attended 4 weddings....
1st wedding: my elder brother
2nd: My high schoolmate - WLT's wedding
3rd wedding : KSH - Highschool mate
4th wedding:
Same day with KSH, so only the pic i took with them. Luckily their wedding located at the same hotel... haha...
Pity my friend as she had chicken pox that time, was that mean lucky? or meaningful?
Both of them are our mates as well. Everyone still surprising and wondering how their "chemical of love" started as they no even closer to each other in high school.... ...an unexpected love =)
The tallest building in Sarawak!! Hehe...it only 28th floor if not mistaken. What is the richest of Sarawak?? Land! of course! we not need high building hahaha....
My best friend's daughter, she is cute, damn cute man!!! solution of stopping crying, naughty --> eating !!... miss her so much...:)
Back to KL just nice 11 plus to 12 and saw fireworks...... A new year started -2009!! Happy "Niu" year
Day by day... a HK friend from Perth to KL visit finally....
Also, my eldest brother back from WA with her wife.... we all went for shopping, bring along my HK friend of course....
The Chinese New Year decoration of brother's hotel... Damn red but nice :P
Since awhile, we didn't get a shot
Time to go back Sibu for CNY......
House visiting - group of my primary schoolmates.......
"Rhinoceros" visited Sibu for most CNY...people suffering with flooding, An unhappy new year, affected daily life and business....... The other cities and towns of Sarawak also affected by flooding as raining everyday...... Sigh!! environment causes, political causes, and climate causes...
Due to bad weather, stay home most of the times.. Finally, a trip to kuching!!
Visited my friends who i hadn't met over 3 to 5 years
Gathering with gang of friends in Kuching....
Times running out.... holidays end real soon! A final week countdown at KL prior back to perth.
"lou shan" with ex-colleagues and final gathering. The first time as well as final time "lou shan" prior CNY end.
After lunch of "lou shan", we went K ...... =)
The final met up!! - Lunch
Friend C with her baby... She is cute and pretty, like smile all the times =) but vomited on me 2 times on that day... hahaha
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